Last night after dinner, sil offered to bring Meia over to her house so that I could get some much needed rest... well, Michael was all for it, but I was abit reluctant to the idea, but since hb insisted on it, I had to agree n as I watched little Meia say her bye bye to me, my heart started to ache.... I watched her going happily into the car with sil w/o even taking a second look at me........... barely 10 mins after Meia left with sil, I started to TEAR............... gosh I was already missing my gal. I felt so empty. I hugged her horsey pillow n hb saw a tear running down my cheek.....
I told hb to go fetch her at 9pm.... wow, the time sure passed so slowly. At 8.45pm, I sprang out of my seat, suddenly feeling ALIVE!!! Hb's documentary has just ended n I hasten him to go fetch Meia.
Yes, I must learn to let go slowly... now its me who can't let go.