This morning Meia was very difficult during bathtime. At first she told MIL that she wanted to go upstairs to have her bath (I juz finished my shower n had prepared her water). So MIL took Meia's hand n led her upstairs. Halfway up the stairs Meia saw me n suddenly wanted to go down again. Both Mil n I stopped her n she threw a fit right smack at the middle of the stairs. She was kicking wildly n I thought it was pretty dangerous so I forcefully carried her up to the bathroom.
The trouble began in the bathroom. She didn't want her hair washed, but I insisted on it because she was all sweaty n smelly after her morning run in the garden, so I sat her down on my lap n started wetting n shampooing her hair.... manz she kicked n kicked. Good thing I positioned her on my side so she didn't kick my tum. Quickly rinsed n put her inside the bathtub. Meia made a big fuss kicking n splashing water all over the toilet n all over me. Okie, here's the part that really ATE me. I guess Anger got the better of me, I got so fed up, I used the small ice cream cup, scooped water n poured several cups of water over her head, she cried n cried..... as soon as I've finished the deed, I felt GUILTY, my heart bled, n I felt BAD. WHY did I do it??? I took the towel n dried her face. Surprisingly, she calmed down after that, but I felt worse... I continued bathing her in silence... a truck whizzing past broke the silence when Meia turned to me n said 'truck'.... n I smiled at her n she did likewise. Later on we played with the bubbles n I imitated Jasper the Clown (from Wheels on the Bus) n managed to crack many laughters from my little gal....
I still feel bad as I'm writing this. I feel I should have better control of my temper.