I was reading this from
Jean's blog, the
Maxwell Family Blog n it brought tears to my eyes as I can feel the pain on the loss of their little baby gal.
It is every Mother's hope (n daddies too) that their little precious ones are born healthy n normal. As a Mother the 2nd time round, I too hope little Max will be a healthy kicking boy when he's out of my tum tum n stays forever healthy for the rest of his life, that same hope goes out to Little Meia too.
Reading that blog has certainly did some re-wakening within me. Am I really cherishing what I have at the moment? Am I really treasuring my beautiful kids, my wonderful husband, my loving mother, grandmas n my immediate families.... what would I be without them n what how will I react when they have to leave this world? Well, Devastated is the word. Okie, but back to the point.... sometimes I really do think I don't treasure my little Meia, at times I think I'm really a very bad mother.... honest... I feel bad when I scream, scold or shout at her, I imagined myself to be in her shoes n I feel really BAD, bad for my little gal, who really loves me with a pure n innocent heart.... I'm so sorry little one.
With that written, I really need to do some soul searching.... that is to live everyday as if its the last, not to take anything for granted.