Anger and Frustration got the better of me yesterday and as I reflected on the day's activities before going to bed, I was suddenly shocked by my own 'violence'.... n I suddenly felt very bad n sorry towards my daughter. This was what happened.
I was having my dinner and Meia was in the living room playing with my maid. All was well till she came into the kitchen (she's always fond of making life difficult for me especially during meal times) and suddenly decided to throw a tantrum... I for one, since young, am not one to tolerate anyone disturbing me when I'm having my meals for no valid reason (that goes to my ex boss too). She started demanding the maid to open the fridge (opening the fridge for no reason is a no no for me), when I said No, she started to bawl, scream n kick. Next she wanted to pick up a biscuit that dropped on the floor, this is another No No for me cos I'm very particular about Meia's hygiene (especially after the cold sore episode), cry... n scream. I couldn't take it anymore, I went up to Meia, grab her head with my hands, fingers pinching the sides of her cheek n dealt a slap on her face (fortunately, I controlled my strength), told her sternly, but loudly to keep quiet.... she immediately stopped... guess I must have looked very fierce, even my maid was slightly tearing n afraid to look my way...
Was I too hard on my daughter? Afterall she's only 2 years old. Yes, disiciplining them is one matter, but I guess I need to pray for patience n self control each day. Looking back, I don't want the same thing to happen again and I hope I can deal better if something similar happens.
I'm so sorry Meia.