U're 25 Now

Meia's 25 months today! 25 mths down the road, she hasn't been successfully potty trained, not much speech development, she talks, but I can say she's rather quiet... but one things for sure, she has a very kind heart :)

Happy 25 months darling!

Even Though...

Yes, some of u may say I'm a lucky woman, a SAHM who doesn't need to do any housework.... (well at least not for now till the kids are bigger)... even though I've a maid, I'm still very hands on with both my kids. I bathe n feed them, change and wash them when they poo, and I still cook Meia's meals now.

Well, some of u may throw me this question... why can't cope? its not that I can't cope... its more like it isn't easy with a two yr old toddler who doesn't listen at times (anyway, it isn't being a parent)... or some may say, so lucky don't need to do housework, what's so difficult? Well, when u're in my shoes, only then will u understand. Or if your hubby tells u to have the maid sleep with the kids, or leave them in the maid's care... sorry, I don't think I can do that. Since I made the decision to be a SAHM I take it upon myself to ensure that my kids get the best of my time, my love n my everything. In short, though I have a good maid, I rather TRUST myself when kiddos are concerned. No matter how tired I am, when it comes to my kids, they get 101% of my attention.

To my hubby who's reading this... if u happen to visit... its really hard at times... even though I don't work, and I don't have work pressures, I've other issues to deal with at home too. I'm really trying hard to PROVE myself to ur mom n also yourself. I'm not a useless woman (even though u don't think so)... at this stage, I'm sorry I can't help u save the money on having a maid, but when the kids are older (school going age), I'll soldier everything myself, I believe I can manage a semi-d house on my own, complete with cooking n all... if your mom can do it, so can I. I may not be as capable as your mother, but Don't under estimate your wife.

To all who think that I'm a Tai Tai enjoying life, well, u're very wrong here... SAHM doesn't = to a tai tai, its a very very far cry.

Lastly, to my hubby, please do not think I'm not enjoy ing SAHM life, I really DO and its something I willingly do for the rest of my life, with or without a maid.

Meia said...

I got frustrated with Meia during her naptime this afternoon and dealt her with two smacks on her thighs. And what came out of her mouth was truly hurting. Infact they felt like thousands of daggers stabbing me in the heart. And when she said it, she was trying very hard to wrestle outta my arms.... she said 'Mai mi mi! Mai mi mi!' (Don't want mommy don't want mommy)...

My heart wept a thousand tears...

Meia's Character

Okie, Meia has her fair share of terrible tantrums, temper and what nots.... but one thing I've noticed about my little girl is her ability to Share (when asked to)... She's certainly most like me, she's not domineering, nor dominating. Why am I happy? Mainly its because of her loving character that assures me that she'll be a caring n loving sister to her brother.

Mommy n Daddy are very proud of you!

Meia Peed in the Potty

Yeah! She finally peed in her Potty!!! I'm so happy n encouraged by the results... of course, Meia was subjected to the 'hard' route..... poor thing, but when u gotta train in u gotta train. I'm really looking forward to seeing her in panties instead of diapers... as this marks the 'growing up' of my little girl! :)

Thanks Irene

Irene dropped by today with little Ashlyn for a visit. It sure is great to see them as the last time we met was about 3 months back at Marven's full month, and we didn't get to chat much, so today is sorta like a catchup time n I say, Irene looks very pretty with her short hair :) As for little Ashlyn, she has grown so much, so pretty!!! and she sure speaks very well for her age.... hmmmm for a 2 yr old, Meia's still not speaking as well, but I'm unfazed by it, so long as she's growing, eating n drinking well (mil was sorta comparing the two kiddos lah)... I'm late in speech too (I'm worse, I spoke my first word only at age 3, so Meia's so much better than me hahaha)....

Anyway, we had fun, I'm sure Ash had fun too, climbing up n down the stairs (which really made my heart jump, I'm really not into kids playing n walking up n down stairs). It was great seeing them again and Irene, thanks for the gifts, u not only got for Maxus, but for Meia too!

Thanks for dropping by!!

Happy 1st Month Maxus

To my Dearest Son

U're finally reached the One Month mark. I guess it has been an uphill 'climb' for you as u've gone thru alot in terms of health wise. Its Great to note that u've recovered. Mommy n Daddy are happy to see u growing up well.

We hope that you're always be healthy and happy always! We love you Son!

Love with hugs n kisses
Mommy n Daddy

Visit

My good friend came to visit me this afternoon with her Daughter n Son and we had a really good chat admist 2 running toddlers, some very noisy toys and a very sweet n quiet 10 mth old baby boy, who's cruising n crawling. Suddenly life for me felt 'SANE' again. Why? U ask? Maybe its because I haven't had company from people my age come talk heart to heart n what more a very close n good friend whom u have absolutely nothing to hide, can be yourself (as in no need to doll up specially), who knows u inside out, whose kids are about the same age, and someone whom I can really POUR my heart out to.... well in short, I should say we are just very comfortable with each other.

U will truly understand how I feel when : -

1. U're a SAHM
2. U're handling a active Toddler n a mth old baby
3. U're cooped up at home
4. U're always screaming at the top of ur voice at ur Toddler till ur neighbour calls up to ask why
5. Having to always discuss those afternoon SOAPY TAIWANESE dramas (not by choice) with ur MIL
6. Trying to Potty train ur Kid
7. Reason with your Toddler
8. Sneak out of the house without being seen by your Toddler, lest she BAWLS like no tomorrows
9. Trying to pump your breast milk in peace (w/o having to watch over what your Tod is up to)
10. Trying to tell your hb how u feel w/o him telling u that everything can be trained... (Pressure man)
11. Trying to eat your meals in peace (w/o any interference ie. itchy fingers wanting to touch ur hot bowl of soup, screaming toddler, a toddler who refuses a wash after a poo, a hungry crying mth old baby etc..)
12. Trying to get ur Toddler to nap
13. Trying to pack n keep ur stuff as neat as possible (lest the hubby complains)
14. Trying to pacify the hungry n angry baby to have his milk (can't let him wait too long else he doesn't wanna drink)

Not that I'm not enjoying being a SAHM, incase u misunderstand, I really DO enjoy spending time with my kiddos... just that SAHMs are humans too and need a space to RANT and I choose to do it here...

The list just goes on n on n on n on....

BUT back to the topic, I really enjoyed her company, as well as her 2 kiddos. Hopefully the next time we meet, it would be a more relax atmosphere....

Thanks for visiting Pal!

Training Meia on the Potty / Toilet

Yes, I've officially started training Meia to use the potty or toilet last week, and although she hasn't pee or poo-ed in it, she has shown interest in it n has started to sit on her little red potty. I've put her on training pants (which I bought ages ago, but I kept putting it off coz I was plain LAZY) but now I think its high time she learns how to use the potty. I'm trying to keep it as less stress as possible for Meia, I got a Miss Piggy story book on using the Potty as well as Elmo's Potty Time VCD. She has seen the VCD a couple of times, haven't shown her the book though. I hope she will 'see' the potty as fun, not a SCARY thing.

Although I'm feeling rather STRESSED myself, I'm taking it easy on potty training her. I believe she'll be trained in a matter of time n I've to be patient.

What have I become?

Yes, what have I morphed into? This question is constantly on my mind these days or rather after the birth of Maxus. How does my daughter see me now? Have I become a scary, horrible, tongue lashing, violent grabbing monster? Upon reflection, I shudder at my own actions. What have I become? Why do I get so easily irritated n angry with my daughter? Or is this just an excuse to vent my frustrations out on her? I really don't know, but what I do know is that I've to try n curb whatever anger in me, lest I turn into an abusive mom. It makes me sad that I'm treating my First Born this way. I look at Meia's baby pictures and feel so sorry n bad for her. What have I done besides grabbing her face tightly from my last post? Well, I'm not proud to write this, but this is where I can truly vent my frustrations, my rants, my joys, my sorrows, all the pressures etc. And I'm not trying to get any sympanthy votes either.

Well the sinner slapped her daughter rather hard on her face this afternoon for shouting n screaming while I was preparing her lunch. She was terrified (infact she has been scared of me these days), tears started streaming down her face, and I immediately stopped my ruthless act. You can say that I've just unleashed the monster in me. The patient loving mom is no longer around, but my daughter still loves me the same. This makes me even more guilty, so guilty.

My poor daughter has become the receiving end of all my pent up frustrations.... I don't even know how to end this post....