No. 2

Nope, I'm not preggie... juz sharing my thoughts. Y do u have no 2? Do u :-

1. Sincerly love children
2. Juz for the sake of having children
3. Under Pressure
4. Because everyone else around is pregnant
5. To provide a playmate/companion for ur first born

Hmmm... I guess there are many other reasons, but I can only think of these few reasons. For me, its gotta be reason 5. I don't know, actually, I'm pretty happy with juz Meia. But I don't want her to land up like me, an only child. Not saying an only child is no good, but I know how lonely it can get at times. I'm fortunate to have a caring n loving grandma who saw to my needs while my parents worked. I can say that despite having friends near me, I am still very much, a LONER... There are pros n cons abt being an only child. For one, I'm very thankful to my parents for providing me everything that I asked for. Even forcing my mom to let me have Piano lessons. Well, we were not wealthy at all, but she managed to scrimp n save for my $1,400 30 yr old Kawai piano. That was alot of money then and thankfully I didn't let her money go to waste. I was a distinction student, skipped a couple of grades along the way (this is something I'm very proud off, n probaly the only thing in my 33yrs of life I can boast abt haha, do my apologies, do bear with me).

Okie back to the topic. Having only Meia allows me to throw all my effort, love, care, sweat, money etc solely on her. She has our undivided attention. But then again y do I want No. 2? Simply, I don't want her to be all alone in this world when hb n I go meet our maker... yes, she'll marry (I hope to a very good, decent n dependable man, else even if I die, I'll haunt him if he ever ill treats my darling), but what ifs???? If I'm able to give her either a sister or a brother, she has someone to 'pour' her heart out (other than me lah), n if I'm gone, n hb too... if her hb's bad, she has a sibling to run too... Am I thinking too much here??? I always have lotsa nonsensical stuff in my head...

I cherish my little buttercup very much, I love her to bits, words cannot describe a mother's love....

So for u my little cupcake... mommy's gonna try for either a sister or a brother... meanwhile, juz to let u know I am truly thankful n grateful for having u as my Daughter.

Love U.

It has been a long n tiring week

My previous post was on meia being sick, well she actually had cold sores!!! the blisters on the tongue n chin started to appear after she saw the PD on Thursday. Was thinking to myself surely an ulcer on the lower lip won't make her so irritable n unable to sleep. N those horrible scary red pus like pimples kept me worried. So I brought her to the pd again on Monday. By the time we got there, m's blister on the tongue had burst n started to bleed... n she was in awful pain... gosh, I wished I was the one suffering. She was put on antibiotics, n I was told to watch for warning signs n to admit to KKH should she refused food n drink. Luckily, meia, though in pain didnt refuse her food. I could only give her cold milk, everything had to be cold. n since she rejected her bottle, I had to spoonfeed her... at nite I was left alone to cope with a very waily, irritable baby... who simply refused to sleep on the bed like she usually does... I had to carry her n didn't get much sleep for a week n a half. To top it up, her 4 first molars all are errupting! No wonder she was extra cranky, n clingy.

It has been a week now, n Meia is slowly recovering. I'm glad to see she back to her normal cheery n cheeky self.

Meia is sick

Haven't been updating for the past few days because Meia was down with fever n ulcer in the mouth. Sigh... if I had been more careful, she wouldn't have landed up with an ulcer on her lower lip. U see, on Sunday, she fell down and bit herself, thus the ulcer. On Monday night she felt rather warm so I brought her to the PD on Tuesday morning. By then, she was already running a fever. At first, I thought it was due to teething (BTW, she's really teething, just not the molars), but upon careful examination, PD found that her lower lip has an ulcer... okie, at least it wasn't UTI... but the wait to catch the urine was really really long n I for one was anxious for her to pee cos she hasn't peed (very unlike m) for like some time.

Usually, Meia will flip n turn on the bed to sleep. But these few nights, she has been extra extra extra x 10 clingly. She wants me to rock her... ok, rock till she's in deep slumber I'll put her down. Guess what? She woke up n cry.... on good days (sometimes i rock her) she'll juz flip to her right n sleep right away... these nites, I've to carry her to slumberland... n mind u, when I sit or try to lie down she whines or cries... man.... I miss sleeping on the bed..... I miss the uninterrupted sleep.... I'm really on my OWN!!! I am frustrated! I wished I was the one with all the ulcers in the mouth n tongue...

I hope Meia recovers soon, my milk monster even rejected her fav bottle. Now I gotta feed her milk with a spoonn... I gotta say, when ur kid's sick, u gotta have lotsa patience... wish sadly, I've very little, but I'm trying my best to soothe n comfort her. I want my little cheery buttercup back... I miss her cheeky smile...

FYI, its not HFMD... but I'm getting kindda worried cos the excessive saliva has caused a 'pimply' breakout on her chin... angry red spots...

She knows how to say

.... mei4 mei4 hahaha when? I was looking at Becky's pictures when little miss m became interested n she kept staring n smiling at Becky... I repeated mei mei n guess what?... she repeated the same after me!!! =)

She has been saying this for the past 2 days

Mak mak (meaning milk milk)... hahaha took me awhile to grasp what she was trying to tell me until I saw her pointing to her milk dispenser n bottle!!!

Monday Afternoon at Carelynn's

Yesterday I brought little Meia to Carelynn's place as she was on leave. When we reached there, we were greeted by a very cheery Ashlyn who immediately gave Meia a hug, kekeke, so cute! Of coz, my little gal needed time to warm up, as usual. Little Ash's room is so cozy!!! With red furniture n a purple wall, complete with a Pooh bear n Friends painting! Wow!!! Nice! Wish Meia has a room like that too. I'll do hers in pastel pink, complete with tinkerbells!!! Wishful thinking lah... unless my BIL vacates his room n stays in Shanghai for good!

Little Meia had loads of fun! She walked in n out the rooms, played with the kitchen set, pushed the tricycle etc... as if it was her house! She had a fun time with Carelynn's helpers, n when the two gals were playing hide under the table, it was so CUTE!

Thanks for the clothes n puzzles Carelynn!!! We certainly had FUN!!!

Hazy Hazy Haze

ARRRGGGHHHH its back again!!! n its so BAD today, PSI 128! Gosh I feel as if I'm at a movie set, swampy area, like in LOTR, The Fellowship of The Ring... Manz... n its getting into my head! Had a headache last night n a headache the whole of today. Well, I did sneak out and 'abandoned' Meia at home, as not safe for gai gais. Errr... don't wanna risk having a sick kiddo.

I wonder when this stupid haze's gonna go away for GOOD!!! These few afternoons are spent indoors, with me watching Barney with Meia, playing ball, playing Catch me mama! Well its always fun spending time with my little gal, but I do wish she can be out again soon enjoying the sun!

Little Meia has been staring at the gate since morning, but I've instructed everyone to keep her indoors. If u can smell the charred smell inside your house, let alone being outdoors!!!! Me or my..... I wish for BIG HEAVY RAIN!!!!

Haze Haze go away little (n big children, that's me)children wanna play. Mama May is bored at home, haze haze go away....

Cloth Diapers

I'll be switching Meia to cloth diapers soon... I think she'll be more comfortable inside and for long term, its really costs savings. Thanks to Wei Fun who reccommended it to me.

It comes in many pretty n sweet colours, n I've placed on order on a pretty peach in M size. Trying out 1 first.

Shopping n the Library

I brought Meia n my maid Nati to J8 this afternoon after lunch since MIL was out. It was indeed a wise choice to bring her along cos I could do my shopping in peace, don't need to rush, I could take my own sweet time. Seiyu was having a super sale, I bought a white pair of baby pooh walking shoes for Meia. Was attracted to Strawberry Shortcake tees, but the biggest they had was too big.... sheez.. anyway, it isn't very cheap...

Okie, the thing I actually had in mind to buy was the hip rider. Went to KP n bought Infantino hip rider, cost me $62.10 after discount. Next we headed for the library, n little Miss Meia treated it like a playground. Once I put her down on the floor, she grabbed a book n started KPO-ing around... she even stole the hearts of many aunties n jie jies over there... so sweet.

I tried the hip rider on Meia as soon as I got home...so far so good, she seemed to like it... so I'll use this next time along with the pram... but I'll still take my sarong sling along, juz in case... n meia can nap inside to, though I think its pretty hot, n my sling's cotton!!! I'm still considering whether to get a mesh one, but guess that will have to wait...

For fun pix

Some Me Time

It was a hazy day, n I didn't wanna risk bringing Meia out, so I 'adandoned' her at home with MIL n maid. I had to sneak out from the backdoor though. My maid cleverly left her in the playpen n covered her view of the front while I sneaked out.

Went to market to get her FM n lotsa other household items. I stopped by the VCD shop n got to choose in PEACE 3 Barney VCDs for Meia. I also got a Paddington Bear n Mr Men VCD. I grabbed Mr Men cos I think its seldom seen now. So I lugged a 1.8kg Gain IQ, 5 VCDs, 1 bottle of Ribena ($2.50, 600g), a toy plane, 2 packs of wet wipes for my bedroom floor... wanted to grab somemore stuff but too heavy already....

When I came home, the little gal was elated to see the toy plane that I bought for her.

What's in the slow cooker

Its back to the basics... haha simple lunch for Meia... whitebait with carrot porridge... she lapped it up!!! heh heh think she enjoyed it cos I ate lotsa of that when I was pregnant.

Milk

Meia surprised me today. She wanted her milk n me, I was surfing... kekeke so she walked towards me n pointed to her bottle!!! Blur me!!! 9pm time for her milky!!!

Happy Childrens' Day

Happy Childrens' Day Darling, this is ur first ever kiddy day! But I wished the weather was a little nicer so I could take u out for swimming... as it is , the sky is rather gloomy at the moment.

Little Meia n I spent 3 days n 2 nites at my mom's and she really enjoyed her time with my mom n grandma. Although she doesn't get to see them as often as before, she still loves my mom n my family VERY much!!! No cryings whatsoever even when she sees her great grand uncles n aunties, she's very much a very sweet n cheerful gal. Maybe my family members have very smiley faces???

She's walking more steadily now, I brought her to the playground n she enjoyed walking, sitting on the springy rocking rides, and of course... the slide!!! But I had to hold her... at the end of the half hr session, both mother n child were like 'wet' from head to toe.... haha but we did have fun, and Meia set her eyes on a gor gor (who's abt 7 or 8 I think)and she made me follow him. I let her walk on her own on the rubber floor of the playground, but I being the Kiasi mom, held her two hands while on the concrete floor....

I guess I'll be bringing her to the playground later in the evenings, where we can get some exercise!! Hahaa mainly for me lah, I'm so fat now...